Rant

burning rage grows faster
screams replace the laughter
the lies build up
and fill the cup to which you will drown in soon after
numb to the pain but shelter the blame
i dont care anymore if you get burnt by the flame

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The saying goes that nice "guys" finish last right? Well I think it should be nice "people"

I mean it really is no wonder that such a saying exists, those with good hearts and pure intentions get smashed into the ground first. I guess it not only makes them fools for continuing to be the way they are but it also makes them some of the strongest people around. Though I can't speak for all but I'm guessing most would think that its okay to walk all over a person or don't even think about what they are doing since they are getting some sort of gain out of it.....but the real question is have they ever stopped to think about the other person? Their feelings? Their thoughts? Most people who are "nice" do it out of their hearts....a form of love I guess you could call it......yet its not really thought about until the end when the nice person is knocked down so far that they are of no use....

Of course that is just the extreme .......

bleh I'm just ranting, I am sorry about this long spiel and what not.....I just wonder what all the people who walk all over me without a second thought would do the moment I'm not here for them to use anymore

Busy times

Bleh.......been kinda lost in my head for a few days so I haven't really posted on here ......

I play this game and its "age" or"season" whatever you wanna call it is ending soon and I have been frantically trying to make sure our alliance ends up in top place....whether that will happen i have no idea but we shall see in the next couple days.......

i will be back on here soon hehe......gotta get back to my photo of the day :P my inspiration.....my life.......

though our paths are different
it still remains the truth
that no matter the distance between us
my love for you shines through
its painful to miss your smiles,
your tears and laughter too
but i know im in your heart
so it helps me feel close to you

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I have been feeling very lost about a lot of things...... So many people I care about with all my heart I have drifted apart from. It is so hard to be alone yet I still have feelings of guilt when it comes to my relationships with friends and family.....damn this confusion Haha! Dammmmmit to hell........ I love them all with every bit of my heart, miss them with all my being but I'm so irresponsible about keeping in contact with them ....grrrrrrrrrr

Sky

I took this photo on halloween :D As my sister and I were walking the kids around during trick or treat......The look of the sky really caught my attention and i couldnt stop staring into the sky -sigh- I love nature for that reason, something as little as a cloud can capture my interest...I am happy the picture came out as good as it did since i took it with my crappy cell phone >.< :)

Searching for inspiration

I was looking through pictures on photobucket, i saw this and it just screams peace to me.....but of course my head started going in all different directions once i saw it lol.....

came up with this little poem start, not sure whether i will try and add to it or not.....

my head seems twisted
the hurt fading fast
such painful memories
but its all in the past
each second brings new life to me
no reason to live in constant misery

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i think im going to start taking a daily photo thing haha just see what kind of inspiration i get from it hehe

2 more poems

Two more of my darker poems :\ i think i wrote these are a really Low day/night.....


Shadows are encasing me
Trembling in fear
I know all to well what happens when u have another beer
Fists and words start flying
We both will end up crying
Your lies,
My blind eyes
Will this stop before one of us dies?
As the bullet casing starts to rust
The wind is blowing both of us
The bang is heard for miles
He looks down and smiles
Pulls the trigger again
Guess neither of us will win
No true love, no true glory
This is the end of our brutal love story


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Passion is fading
The feelings are lost
Look at that flower,
its dying from the frost
He's grown cold and distant in such a short time
Would've never guessed
I'd be left behind
What happened i may never know
I just keep trying to push the pain below
The sharp cold wind reveals his sin
I dont think i will go back again
I'll move on from this space
To a warm place
and keep an unwavering smile upon my face

A Poem

A poem i wrote back in 2008, its slightly morbid some may say emo >.< (which im not) but i still love this one hehe

Cutting, Cutting
Slicing me so deep
Piercing the silence
As the blood begins to seep
These wounds that are caused
Show me all my true flaws
The Outer
The Inner
In truth, there is no real winner
Dripping tears
Pouring blood
Can you tell me?
Does a person always fear a death that is near?
Again with the silence
Doesn't anyone have anything to say ?
Especially since this is surely my last day
It gets so cold in this place
I can't see anyones true face
Maybe I just wish I could've kept up with the ever changing pace
A long sigh
A quick cough
It looks like my body has finally had enough
So for this farewell
I won't continue to cry
I'll just send my sweet gaze to the all forgiving sky
And whisper goodbye
Drift off into a peaceful deep sleep
As the last drop of blood splatters on the concrete

Random FB status i thought of....

there once was this girl i dare say she was tough but inside her heart was nothing but fluff....the tears she cried the papers she shred could never truly curb the hideous feelings of dread.....one day to the next is always a suprise never really knowing whats beyond the next sunrise

RAWR!!!

So hey all :)

I have officially decided i would start a blog....i know that its not gonna be seen by many if anyone LOL but it just seems fun for some reason....

I will prolly just post some random things and transfer some of my poems here from myspace and facebook but ehhh yeah so "Hiyas" if you so happen to look at this

and

talk to ya laters :P