a couple random thoughts/poems

burning souls forgotten
bright nights and darkened days
forever wandering
lost to all the old ways
love and cherish
worries that it will all just perish
they keep me in this constant state
i wish to break free
but its all just too much for me

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this life reminds me of the fall swept leaves
falling and blowing
getting beaten up by the breeze
only to rest upon the ground
they will surely be replaced once spring comes around
will this pain linger?
i don't know
i want to find that light
and continuously grow
up to the sky
try to fly high
cherish the time i have
so that it may not all seem so bad

Nephews Birthday!!!

ahhhhh today my nephew turned six years old !! Talk about craaaaaaaazy ...... HeHe

It is really strange watching him grow up more and more each day. I was at the hospital the night he was born and have been with him ever since (minus the time the sister lived away but even then I still saw him) It is quite weird how much he can act like me >.< whether it be burping/farting or just being all lovey/cuddly, he brightens the room well unless hes being super bratty but even then its hard to stay mad lol....... I feel that way about both my nephew and niece and even my little cousin, watching them grow is something I would never wanna give up not even for all the money in the world... I LOVE my family sooooo much ...... I don't want to be without them......same goes for those select few super close friends who are irreplaceable to me....I don't know what I would do without them in my life

the photo is from the nephews party :D he was sooooo happy about his dino cake

Spring in full bloom

I love flowers and trees ......nature in general :D

we have these trees growing around my apartment complex and i love the smell and look of them :) they somehow make me smile hehe

An older poem...

Wrote this back in early 2008......

Up all night

Sleep all day

Wanting the pain to just fade away

Friends I thought were true

Yet for some reason I am feeling so blue

Stress building

Tears falling

Wondering why I even try

Waiting for the day I can just fly

away to a place where I can be free

No worries

Just Me

Park Day

took the kiddies and grandmother to the park today and had a cook out since we didnt do it on easter..... the kids had fun playing while the sister and i cooked the food

she got mad at me cause i turned her steak toooooo soon >.< bleh whatever hahahahahahaha

my granny is still losing her mind but it seemed she had fun so im happy about that.....

i will be 27 in a month but i admit i still like chasing the kids around the playground and swinging on the swings ^_^

the picture im posting with this is the kids, they slid down the slide to get away from me but i was faster and caught them at the bottom....the nephew was rushing to climb back up but i still got them hehe

Happy Easter

I dont really celebrate Easter other then getting together with a few family members and doing the typical Easter stuff with the kiddies.... but i wish you all a good day regardless :P

We didnt do the typical Easter this year....the sister and I went to the hospital and spent most of the day with my youngest sister who is in the hospital fighting her best to get better.....the kids had spent the weekend with my aunt so it was a bit strange......but everyone is doing okay just a bit strained it seems

anyways Happy Easter or Happy Zombie Jesus day (as a buddy of mine so elegantly put it ...in which laughter ensued hehehe) hope you are all well and enjoying april so far :)

April Fools!

Bleh

I can never come up with cool tricks to play and it annoys the crap out of me >.<

i know i lack in imagination but i really wanna pull off an awesome trick one of these days .....Grrrrrrrrrrrr!